Pinkie Larue

For the last couple of years, my friends both online and IRL, have participated in NaNoWriMo-National Novel Writing Month. It’s an event where the goal is too write a novel during the month of November. I’ve attempted it about 3 times, but I always stopped writing around the second week. I thought about doing it again this year, but I KNEW I wasn’t going to complete it so I didn’t even attempt. Instead I found something I will participate in! NaBloPoMo! National Blog Posting Month! I know, I know, I’m a day late. I’ll add in an extra post somewhere. The goal of this little deal is to just post a blog post every day. I know I’ve been a little sporadic with my blog posts, so I’m hopinh this will help me blog more regularly…or I’ll fail at this too. :/ Anyway, I’m going to try to post daily even if it just a picture from my iphone!

I’m really nervous about today. I could have a really stressful day or a relaxed day. Department of Human Services is coming to assess my preschool. Out of all of the classes in the preschool they draw out of a hat 4 names of classrooms that they will assess. They will he shadows in those classrooms. Following your every step, making sure you follow every rule in the book. NO One follows every rule in the book. Some of the rules are just plain ridiculous. But today we will. We will wash both our hands and the child’s hands before and after we wipe their nose, we will disinfect any toy or item that gets sneezed on or licked-immediately, we will place mats at least 4 inches away from other mats, we will not tell the kids to do anything, but suggest it just like the book says and tons of other stuff we never do.

I hope my class doesn’t get picked. I don’t work well under pressure and I’m sure I’ll forget to do something “by the book” with people observing me.

Hey friends! it’s been awhile. But I have an excuse! I’ve been busy. Working 40 hours a week+tutoring on the side+being awake at weird hours to talk to a boy across the world means I don’t blog as much as I’d like to. Who am I kidding? even when I wasn’t this busy I didn’t blog regularly!

I don’t want to bore you with a long post about my last week and a half so here’s the abridged short list version.

I’ve been having really LOOOOOONG days at work
and tutoring afterwards a couple of days a week
was in the hospital and out of work for a couple of days last week
returned to work this week to 100% better
bought some cowboy boots from DSW!!!
took a small unexpected trip to Nashville last weekend
got my hair braided
got a flu shot, bought some new comics, hung out with Allison and some old friends, dealt with a fire at work today! (craaaazy!) and basically just been chilling ^_^

I resurrected my Tumblr. Yes, yes, yet another site from me! ^_^ Ive had it for awhile, but haven’t been active on it lately. I think that will change now that I downloaded the iPhone app, Tumblerette. (everything is so much easier to do/remember with the iPhone) So, check it out! It’s mostly random pictures I snag from online, snap on my iphone and sometimes songs that I think the world should hear.

(still off the warcrack)

Woah! Wednesday already. This week has flown by so fast. Hope it continues because I am exhausted and want to sleep all weekend…even though I probably won’t.

I saw Inglorious Basterds last night. I hadn’t even heard of it before this week, then all of a sudden everyone was yapping about it and raving about how great it is. I saw it and wasn’t disappointed! I liked it a lot. I thought the dialogue dragged on at parts, but it’s still a good movie with a great story line. (You know how I love films surrounding WWII) I definitely recommend seeing it. Brad Pitt and the actor that played Colonel Landa were amazing as their characters. So, yea…go see it!

It’s finally starting to cool down here. This morning it was even chilly enough to wear a jacket when Peanut and I went for a walk. Fall is my favorite season so I’m hoping the weather sticks like this and kick starts the season. But knowing our screwy weather, this could just be a tease and next week we’ll go back to 98 degrees. Here’s hoping that’s not the case. *crosses fingers* I start classes on Monday. I switched them to online classes instead of actual classes because the times conflicted with my work schedule. Let’s hope I can not be distracted by WoW, Twitter, and whatever else.

My 3 week stint as a “merchkin” (Wicked merch girl) ended on Sunday. I miss it already. It was a really easy job with great perks and pay. As the weeks went on, I did get annoyed with the songs and thought I’d never want to hear them again. BUT here I am only days later, singing and humming the songs. Particularly this one

I wish there was footage of the actors that played in my tour! They were more comedic and I actually prefer them to the NYC cast. Maybe I’m biased…

I got two new graphic novels yesterday! Stuck in the Middle, a collection of seventeen comics from an unpleasant age, and the one I’m really excited about reading, Persepolis! Persepolis is an autobiographical graphic novel by Marjane Satrapi depicting her childhood in Iran during and after the revolution. It’s also been made into a movie of the same name and has won a few awards. I plan on watching it as soon as I finish reading it. And I’ll get to that as soon as I finish reading Twilight. I had to pause my Twilight reading to re-read Harry Potter book 6. Now that that’s over I can continue to fall for Edward Cullen.

Memphis held it’s Gay Pride festivities this weekend. I was lucky enough to be a volunteer for my most favorite non profit ever! Planned Parenthood (PPH)! I worked the PPH booth at the Gay Pride Festival, walked for them in the Pride Parade, and I worked the booth that morning at the Black Pride conference. I had a lot of fun and met a lot of people. Some cute little fairy boys, some interns, other volunteers, and directors of local Memphis non-profits who will hopefully contact me if they have a job opening. I gave them my info and let them know I was interested in a job within the non profit sector. I’m not counting on anything, but at least now when I apply for one of their jobs, I can attach a little note or something reminding them of our “meeting” and my volunteer work. Oh! I learned a new talent. I now know how to put a condom on a penis using my mouth. “Look ma! No hands!” hehe, well I learned how to on a fake penis that’s used for demonstration purposes. Now to see if it will work on the real thing! >.< The only thing I will complain about is the heat. It had to be at least 103 degrees and I was walking down that street during the hottest part of the day. It felt like the sun was just walking in the parade behind me. As soon as we got to the end of the parade, we went to our tent and proceeded to squirt each other with a water gun full of ice cold water! It felt soooooooo good.

Today, I've been a little down. I know when I get a job, I'll be missing these days -- I can sleep in, read comics, and surf the internet. But right now, all I want is a job! I don't regret quitting my horrid job, but I do miss money, a normal sleep schedule, and having something to do. I feel like I've applied to a million jobs and not one has called me back for an interview. Besides the job thing, I guess reality has set in that I'm actually living in America again and all the things that I dislike about living here are becoming more apparent. But I'm trying to keep a positive outlook on things! I know it will get better. Just need a job, to move out of the mom's, and some friends/social life. I have a few friends, but they're always at work, have their other friends, or we've grown apart and I don't feel like we have anything in common. Who wants to be my friend!? I'm nice! I will play video games with you and drink beer, and play with our dogs in the park, watch True Blood with you, and, and, anything*!

*ok, ok...not ANYTHING, but a lot of things ^_^

pics from gay pride

*Check out this super cool collaborative music/spoken word project.

*Radiohead is working on a new album. Even though it probably won’t come out for YEARS, I’m still excited!

You guys voted for Koekje as my dog’s name. I decided to just leave it as Peanut. hehe. But thanks for voting!

I need this dress

oh and these shoes in red!

and purple >.<

*this video by Franchesca is hilarious!

It’s been a busy, busy, week so far. Work is actually fine. I’m talking about my social life. Since I have 10 more days, (OMG 10 more days!) left in The Netherlands, I’m trying to hang out with everyone and do my favorite things as much as possible before I’m gone for…let’s hope not TOO long. It’s fun, but a bit tiring. I’m pretty sure I’ve been out dancing/drinking more in the last week than in the last month.

Oh, you didn’t know? I’m moving back to the states after living here for close to 2 years! Going back to study nursing. I start my prerequisites, Anatomy and Physiology, on May 26th and actual nursing school in the fall. I’ve had my mind set on this for about the last 6 months, but then yesterday I had a mini breakdown. *omg! what if I can’t do this?! what if I just waste more money in school studying something I will never use!? What if I don’t have the stomach to handle the messy stuff? Why am I moving back to the states?! I wasn’t happy before I left! Will I be depressed when I move back?!* I cried/called to a friend of mine who comforted me A LOT, but I’m still stressed out about things. I have come up with some solutions. To combat the depression/major change of moving from a city I adore and where I have tons of friends to a city where I have maybe 2 friends and have always tried to escape, I’m going to take up a new hobby-join a kickboxing class (lol). I’ll also have my nursing classes, hopefully a job, and I’m going to try my best to make the most of Memphis. I promise I won’t just sit and bitch about it and wish I was back in Amsterdam. I’m truly going to try to like the city I have come to hate so much. And if I don’t like it, I can always save, save, save and relocate. No need to put myself in a situation where I’m not happy I’m sure at first it will take awhile getting used to everything again, but I’m pretty good with adjusting to new situations. To combat my fears of nursing school, while taking the pre-requisite classes, I’m going to try to get part time work at a hospital doing something! I was thinking of taking a Certified Nursing Assistant class(4-6 weeks training) to get qualifications to be a nurse’s assistant. I’ve heard horror stories from people working as assistants( are most CNA jobs at nursing homes? correct me if I’m wrong…i really don’t think I can bathe an adult and I’m not a big fan of the elderly >.<), BUT it would be temporary, and would answer my *Can I really do this?* thoughts. I just need to see a Registered Nurse’s responsibilities/duties up close and personal. I can’t rely on word of mouth/blogs. *sigh* HALP!

I can’t really express my feelings about the move. They’re all over the place. Sometimes, I’m ok with the fact that I’m leaving-it seems like the right move to make and other times I’m crying because I don’t want to leave and I feel like I’m setting myself up for some huge mistake.

Only time will tell!

I should really start packing. I have a week to put almost 2 years of stuff into 2 suitcases under 50 lbs each! I think I’ll be ok. I just have to dump some things and donate to charity. I mean, when will I seriously ever wear snow boots in Memphis?!