Pinkie Larue

I am on the job hunt again! At first I wasn’t so worried about finding a job. I have money to last me for awhile as far as my living expenses go. But I don’t have any money for my savings! I need a job to save for my December vacation to the land down under (“you better run, you better take cover”) and for the move out of my mom’s. I actually have no complaints about living with her. She doesn’t bother me and even better, I don’t pay rent. It works out rather nicely. However, I do miss having my own space and doing whatever tickles my fancy. I’m making a target move out date for either right before I leave for Australia or as soon as I get back. I have a place in mind already. A nice apartment complex in midtown. As far as jobs go, I’m going to hit up an area I haven’t tried yet. Retail! I have a lot of experience in retail. I held retail jobs during college and summers off from college. I worked as sales rep for Limited Too for a couple of years, The Gap for a short stint, and as a Third Key holder and ear piercer at Claire’s. Haha! short side story about a piercing fail. A mother came in and wanted me to pierce her 4 month old daughter’s ears. Piercing at Claire’s isn’t serious business. We were trained to make a mark on the lobe and shoot it with the piercing gun. So, I marked the baby’s ear with a little marker and shot the gun. I realized as soon as I removed the gun away from her ear that I had pierced it in the wrong place! o.O The earring was about 2 cm from the place I had marked. whoops! I tried to distract the mom while I rubbed the mark off, but she saw it and was completely horrified. She yelled at me and told me what a crap job I did and then demanded to see my manager. He was in the back doing inventory, but came out to handle the situation. He gave her the piercing for free, but I HAD to do it because he was doing inventory and I was the only trained piercer in the store. If I was in her shoes, I definitely wouldn’t have wanted the girl that screwed the piercing up to begin with to re-pierce it, but she allowed me to. Thankfully, I didn’t fail. ^_^ Anywho, I’m going to print out a million copies of my resume, put on my cutest little outfit, and give it out to shops on Monday. Surely someone will call me *crosses fingers*

*sigh*I miss having friends! Scratch that, I miss having girl friends. I have lots of guy friends around, but no girl friends. I have one girl “friend” that I go out with on occasion, but it’s not the same. She just wants to hook up with guys and it’s not really hanging out. It’s just having me there so she’s not alone, until she finds some random guy…or at least that what it feels like. I have another truly awesome girl friend here too, but she’s been busy or when she’s free I’ve been busy, so we haven’t been able to catch up. But we are hanging out next week, which I am really looking forward to. I’m on a mission to meet new friends. I know I’ll meet some as soon as school starts, but I want some girly-friends now! I made a new myspace account. (I deleted the old one sometime ago) I know, I know, Myspace! But I didn’t know where else to meet girls. Not sure how it will turn out. I messaged some girls my age in the city that share interests like gaming and comics! I hope they actually write back instead of thinking I’m some weirdo. haha, woah…am I a weirdo for doing this!? o.O

in any case, you can add my new myspace. I’ll probably hate it in a week and delete it, but for now you can find it here.

Memphis held it’s Gay Pride festivities this weekend. I was lucky enough to be a volunteer for my most favorite non profit ever! Planned Parenthood (PPH)! I worked the PPH booth at the Gay Pride Festival, walked for them in the Pride Parade, and I worked the booth that morning at the Black Pride conference. I had a lot of fun and met a lot of people. Some cute little fairy boys, some interns, other volunteers, and directors of local Memphis non-profits who will hopefully contact me if they have a job opening. I gave them my info and let them know I was interested in a job within the non profit sector. I’m not counting on anything, but at least now when I apply for one of their jobs, I can attach a little note or something reminding them of our “meeting” and my volunteer work. Oh! I learned a new talent. I now know how to put a condom on a penis using my mouth. “Look ma! No hands!” hehe, well I learned how to on a fake penis that’s used for demonstration purposes. Now to see if it will work on the real thing! >.< The only thing I will complain about is the heat. It had to be at least 103 degrees and I was walking down that street during the hottest part of the day. It felt like the sun was just walking in the parade behind me. As soon as we got to the end of the parade, we went to our tent and proceeded to squirt each other with a water gun full of ice cold water! It felt soooooooo good.

Today, I've been a little down. I know when I get a job, I'll be missing these days -- I can sleep in, read comics, and surf the internet. But right now, all I want is a job! I don't regret quitting my horrid job, but I do miss money, a normal sleep schedule, and having something to do. I feel like I've applied to a million jobs and not one has called me back for an interview. Besides the job thing, I guess reality has set in that I'm actually living in America again and all the things that I dislike about living here are becoming more apparent. But I'm trying to keep a positive outlook on things! I know it will get better. Just need a job, to move out of the mom's, and some friends/social life. I have a few friends, but they're always at work, have their other friends, or we've grown apart and I don't feel like we have anything in common. Who wants to be my friend!? I'm nice! I will play video games with you and drink beer, and play with our dogs in the park, watch True Blood with you, and, and, anything*!

*ok, ok...not ANYTHING, but a lot of things ^_^

pics from gay pride

Hey Memphis! It’s Gay Pride weekend!

Please come celebrate diversity at the Mid-South Pride festival! The festival starts at Peabody Park at noon and the parade starts at 4PM at First Congo church! (If you want to march in the parade, be there at 3) Hope to see you there!

For more information and directions click here.

Friday evening

I’m in the middle of a thunderstorm. It just knocked the power out in my neighborhood. So, I’m writing this in stickies! Besides the absence of power, I love thunderstorms. I love watching them, hearing the thunder, hearing the rain against the ground, seeing the rain being blown all kinds of ways, the wind blowing the trees…LOVE IT! Whenever I talk of my love for thunderstorms, my mom tells the story of how her water broke and she was rushed to the hospital to have me during a terrible thunderstorm.

That’s footage from the storm.

I went to the doctor today about my panic attacks. I thought he would just write me a prescription for some xanax and send me happily on my way home, but he didn’t. He thinks I may have a panic disorder and ADHD. I have an appointment with a more specialized psych guy in a couple of weeks. I’ll keep you guys updated because I know you’re dying to know…not

Anyway, since I have NOTHING else to do. I organized my photos and went through videos on my computer. I found some funny SHAREABLE videos. There are plenty funny non-shareable ones, but I think my friends would murder me if I posted them (I’m looking at you, emily and devynn! from devnn’s last night at belushi’s!). So, here are two shareable ones.

ok, off to eat the melting ice cream. ^_^

Saturday morning

We are still without power! It sucks! What have I been doing? Well, my mom and I used the last 2 hours of power my macbook battery had to watch episodes of Arrested Development and one of Katt William’s dvds. He is hilarious. After it died, I was completely bored. We live outside of Memphis in a semi-rural area. When the sun sets and there are no street lights you see nothing! We lit candles, got a bottle of wine and listened to my battery operated hello kitty radio! It’s very important that you know that it was Hello Kitty. That only lasted for a little while as I had enough of that music and my mom. I chugged enough wine to get me as drunk as possible. My mom cut me off so I only got a bit tipsy. No worries. It was enough to knock me out for a few hours. I woke up at 3 am bored as hell. I couldn’t read *note to self-invest in a book light* so I just layed in bed staring at the walls. I eventually got up and took some pills that knocked me out until this morning. I’m happy to report that there were only 2 accidents in our house. 1-When the refridgerator defrosted it created a huge puddle of water on the floor. I discovered the hard way. I slipped and fell bruising my ankle. 2-The second accident happened last night. One of the candles burned the candle holder and it was in flames for about a minute and ash was everywhere! Now we’re having lunch at Mcdonald’s. Everyone else had the same idea because it is crowded. Unfortunately, this Mcd’s has no wireless so I am still posting from stickies! Alright, my mom and I are going to watch Weeds and then we are off to her cousin’s house. He still has power!

Sunday
ELECTRICITY HAS RETURNED!

I feel the need to give this topic the respect that it needs. Last week another act of violence was committed against a trans woman in Memphis. She was shot in the nose and throat by her attacker because she “misled him about her gender.” She’s still alive and in critical condition.

Sadly, it happens quite often here. I was shocked to learn that in the last 2 years five trans women have been shot in Memphis. 3 of those resulting in deaths. It really disgusts me! Just because of differences. I find it ridiculous that in this day and age people can’t show tolerance. Come on! No one is asking you to be ok and agree with their lifestyle, but be tolerant of it. Please? If you disagree with how they are living don’t take it out in violence against them. What does that solve?! Nothing.

I wish I knew a way to solve this-these hate crimes. Education maybe? But where do we start? At home? I do think that parents need to start instilling tolerance in their children at young ages. They need to teach their children that it’s ok to be different. And not just with race, which is the only tolerance I remember being taught about, but teaching them tolerance of people with different backgrounds, sexual orientations, religion, life choices, everything! But what happens when the parents don’t agree with tolerance of such things and don’t teach their kids!? Then who do the children learn from!? And what about the parents that instead of passing down the need for tolerance do the exact opposite and pass down more intolerance!? And what about all of the people in the world that are ALREADY intolerant of differences? How are we supposed to reach them!? ahhh! This kind of stuff frustrates me to no end…

I guess I’ll never know the answer, but I do think tolerance would help. Maybe then we wouldn’t have to hear about Dr. Tiller being murdered for his choice to perform late term abortions. Maybe then I wouldn’t be reading about the 3 murders of memphis transgendered women, Leeneshia Edwards, Tiffany Berry and Ebony Whitake.

My heart goes out not only to Kelvin Denton as he recovers in critical care RIGHT NOW, but to victims of any hate crimes, the ones we’ve lost and to all of their families.

My first week as an advertising sales rep was alright. I didn’t trip and fall in my heels! score! I wasn’t actually a sales rep yet as I was in training all week. So, far I’ve learned a lot. How to sell effectively, Do’s and Don’t of selling, the demographic our publication targets, and tons more information about our publication. Seating is everything when you have a week of training. I picked the worst seat ever! We’re on the 25th floor of a building and it has a great view, but of course I picked the seat facing away from it and closest to my boss. I had to sit there ALL WEEK. Ok, it was a short week because Memorial day was Monday aaaaaaaand I wasn’t feeling well on Friday so I called in and went to the doctor.

Tomorrow I start selling! Well, I probably won’t go any sales calls, but I will probably arrange some. I’m going to dedicate the day to calling the prospects (I prospected about 42 businesses that I think would benefit from advertising with us) and setting up appointments.

It is so hot in Memphis. I woke up on Saturday morning to take Peanut out for a walk, put my hand on the doorknob of the storm door and yelled! The doorknob was was so hot. Outside was even hotter. It was only 85 degrees (29 degrees euro peeps!), but it’s so humid here that it felt like I was going to die. I once read on a blog that “Memphis has the highest humidity rate in the world, perhaps the universe. Rain forests are less humid than Memphis.” I dunno about that, but it is flippin hot. Tomorrow is supposed to get up to 95. HALP! : /

It’s not even summer yet!